Sunday, November 24, 2013

Still in to you...


Can’t count the years on one hand
That we’ve been together
I need the other one to hold you.
Make you feel, make you feel better.
It’s not a walk in the park
To love each other.
But when our fingers interlock, 
Can’t deny, can’t deny you’re worth it

'Cause after all this time.
I’m still into you

I should be over all the butterflies
But I’m into you (I’m in to you)
And baby even on our worst nights
I’m into you (I’m into you)
Let 'em wonder how we got this far
'Cause I don’t really need to wonder at all
Yeah after all this time
I’m still into you

Recount the night that I first 
Met your mother
And on the drive back to my house
I told you that, I told you that I loved ya.
You felt the weight of the world
Fall off your shoulder
And to your favorite song
We sang along to the start of forever

And after all this time.
I’m still into you

I should be over all the butterflies
But I’m into you (I’m in to you)
And baby even on our worst nights
I’m into you (I’m into you)
Let 'em wonder how we got this far
'Cause I don’t really need to wonder at all
Yeah after all this time
I’m still into you

Some things just, 
Some things just make sense
And one of those is you and I
Some things just, 
Some things just make sense
And even after all this time
I’m into you
Baby not a day goes by that
I’m not into you

I should be over all the butterflies
But I’m into you (I’m in to you)
And baby even on our worst nights
I’m into you (I’m into you)
Let 'em wonder how we got this far
'Cause I don’t really need to wonder at all
Yeah after all this time
I’m still into you
I’m still into you
I’m still into you


Friday, November 22, 2013

Shattered...

On Monday my husband told me he was not happy and he needed some time to figure out what is going on and why he is not happy. We have been through this before and usually it only lasts a few days. But this time is different. We have grown apart according to him and to me I can see some of it but that is what happens in a marriage. But he right now doesn't see it that way. He needs his space and although I understand, I do not like it. It has been the worst week I have ever dealt with since my first boyfriend broke up with me.

I feel shattered and not quite sure what to do. I feel lost, scared and heartbroken. We have been together for 16 years and he is all I have ever really known. I know I can survive with out him but right now I feel like I want to die. I know I won't but right now that is how I feel. As bad as this sounds being where I am and how I feel I can understand how people who are suicidal see no other option. I would NEVER do it but I can't say that the thought was not there. I do know it will get better but right now it is hard to see it that way.

I just needed to get my feelings out and see if would make me feel any better.

If anyone is reading this, thank you.

Monday, November 18, 2013

I am still here..




If I still have followers left.. I am still around.. Just dealing with some personal stuff and will be back soon I promise!!!!!! I have been reading others blogs just not writing on mine... So thank you if you are still reading....